This, for me, is how it started.
That was in 2009.
Tonight, my mother – a most creative, wise and loving soul – sent us an email which contained only one poem. It is a poem which she has just written. It is a poem about her sister Tugomila. Tugomila and my mother each have a great faith in God – a faith which has served to sustain both of them over the past two years, through many events and challenges.
I sometimes find it difficult to share their faith. I am in awe of it, in fact. I would like to share it. Maybe one day I will.
This, then, with my mother’s permission, is Tugomila and Mama right now.
A moment of profound and heartfelt observation in an evermore burdensome and complicated world. A poem from the soul of the person I am proud to call my mother. A poem by Dubravka Williams-Podhraski.
My sister lying quietly in her bed.
The room is quietly dim,
the window shaded from the sun.
Her face white, her eyes closed,
most of the time.
I will her to open them.
She opens them briefly, asking for water,
taking a sip or two.
She wearily turns over, without a moan.
She is in pain, but she says ‘only a little’.
Like a lamb, she makes no sound.
Oh, Lamb of God, have mercy on her, I pray…
I open the window.
The sun is shining bright.
The refreshing breeze stirs the leaves on the trees
and the curtains inside.
Oh, so enticing to be out.
The cars, all shiny and noisy, and new,
race past, chasing each other’s tails.
The busyness of life outside -
Such a contrast to subdued air inside,
‘… when all our strivings cease’.
It is her time, but not mine, yet.
Oh, Lamb of God, let us allow her to go, I pray…
Sleep well, my sweet sister,
At least for tonight.
I am happy for you to go, though I shall miss you so…
We had wonderful times in years past,
And though I know you are ready to go,
You worry about your family and their pain,
But they are in God’s safe hands…
Sleep well, my darling sister,
You gave much love to me
Though we did not always agree…
You gave much love to our children too.
May Your will be done, oh, Lord, I pray…
ZAGREB, 2nd of June 2011.